not so friendly, but friendly.

I've always thought i am a very friendly person. I love meeting new people. I am happy listening to others talk about themselves. I do really believe that i am friendly, but then i have come to realize that my being friendly only comes up to a certain point. some people even think im snobbish at first. their first impression of me is that i am not the friendly type. haha! Somebody once told me that i choose my friends. of course i choose my friends, i choose those i want to be close with and those who i open up myself to. but what that person meant was that i choose the people i brush elbows with. i don't even allow myself to get to know them if they don't fit my 'criteria'. There are really no criteria. it's just that unconsciously i think i have a mindset of what kind of people to be friends with. When i meet someone new, i won't make the effort of getting to know them unless they show the enthusiasm of wanting to get to know me. If they reach out to me, then that's the only time i will extend my hand back. if not, move on to the next. haha. although there are also times that when a person seems overly enthusiastic about getting to know me, it kinda turns me off. i would think this person has a hidden agenda. he's out to get me. or he's too friendly he wants something out from this. I SERIOUSLY HAVE PEOPLE ISSUES.

I also never liked parties. I skipped out during my high school's acquaintance party, sophomore's night, prom night. I did only attend the ball because i thought that was my last chance of experiencing that kind of event. I don't like going to 'get-to-know-you parties', parties where i don't know most of the people there. i just don't like parties. period. although partying is a different story :). i guess i just don't like making small talk with people i'm not close with. Maybe that's why i am an introvert? but hey, i still do believe i'm friendly. haha.